Ear Orgasm : "When the Wrong One Loves You Right" - Celine Dion
Mask of the Moment : Unsure
Sorry for the lack of updates. Here's a brief recap :
Last week Friday I babysat and took Evan to see this musical with an 80s soundtrack at Chemeketa. It was actually pretty good, all things considered. But I ended up being there way too late, because the rents didn't come home until after 1:30 am (and I'd been up since 5:30 the day before, not to mention that I hadn't gone to bed until 2am cuz Trent stayed over Thursday night). I was zonked.
Saturday I got a haircut and went up to P-town to visit Chris. We happened upon this parade from the Rose Festival, which was a nice surprise. I like unexpected things.
This last week was kind of hellish at work. Lots of tension in the office...it's that time of session. I barely saw Trent at all this week, too. He stayed over on Monday night, and then we basically only saw each other at work until Friday (though we did have a lot of phone time this week, and that made me happy).
Friday he took me home after work and then took me to his friend Valerie's house for a massage that he had arranged for me. It was nice. And then we had dinner and watched a movie. And he stayed over, which was nice. I like it when he stays. This morning we got a late start (despite the fact that we woke up at about 7). Went to the Saturday market, Costco (where we ran into David...awkward!), and stopped by his house to get stuff. I chatted with his mom, which was fun. I really like her. Then we went grocery shopping because he's going to cook me dinner tonight. Yea!
But here's the thing. There are some issues. He treats me like a queen, he is the sweetest guy ever, I have no doubt in my mind that he loves me, but there are some issues. And try as I might to convince myself that these issues will go away, I am not sure. These are things that he needs to work out, and I can't do anything about it except let him know how I feel about it and hope that his love for me is enough. There was actually some crying involved, if you can believe it (on his part, not mine), because he is so scared of losing me (according to him). Part of me wonders if I'm just being an idiot and setting myself up, or if I just love him that much and have major faith in him. Idk...
This is an issue because it has become extremely obvious that he is thinking long-term. The other week he asked me if I would consider moving to Bend. Today he was talking about how we hadn't talked about kids yet. Uhhhh....yeah. We haven't talked about them because they are a non-issue at this point. But clearly it's something in the back of his mind.
*sigh* Idk, folks. Really kind of heavy. But I'm dealing with it. And I'm absolutely dreading having to go back to work this week.
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